| "Behold the worlds worst accident I am the girl anachronism!" |
[Aug. 31st, 2005|02:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Muse- sing for absoution | ] |
girl anachronism - dresden dolls
you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls
you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that're breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
and then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i could act my age
but i dont think that youd believe me
it's
not
the
way
i'm
meant
to
be
it's just the way the operation made me
and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose
i am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
i might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl anachronism
and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors
cause they've seen it all before
they'll say just
let
her
crash
and
burn
she'll learn
the attention just encourages her
and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that i'm sorry that i asked
though you did everything you could
(like any decent person would)
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believeing youre immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off
and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...
i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM!
I am on a total dresden doll high! ^0^
This song in particular makes me think of myself and what other people think of me.. bleh
*anyways* i am ill again today. I havent been this ill a while now but meh. |
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| Quiz spammin' what else? XD |
[Aug. 27th, 2005|04:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blink 182 - all the small things | ] |
1. initials:
AKM...
2. name someone with the same birthday as you:
No-one that i know of anyway theres someone though >_>
3. where was your first kiss?
er.... i cant remember 0_0 with chris then at school...
4. for or against same sex marriages?
For for. People should be allowed to commit to each other lawfully, no matter their gender or sexuality.
5. are you homophobic?
o yeah *sarcasm*
6. are you bisexual?
I like men, but if i liked a girl then i wouldnt mind
7. do you believe in God?
Nope...
8. how many US states have you been to?
Zero =P
9. how many of the US states have you lived in?
.....I'm British...
10. have you ever lived outside the US?
where i live now
11. name something you like physically about yourself:
nothing.. i dont like myself end of
12. name something non physical you like about yourself:
empathy.. i can empatheise really well ^_^
13. where do you want to go to college?
I'm off to Sixth Form first then some sort of university
14. what is your dream car?
One that gets me from A to B
15. if you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
right now then whereever chris is i guess... *self centered moment*
16. have you ever had someone of the opposite sex over at your house while your parents were gone?
Yep
17. how many concerts have you gone to?
in what sense concert? Ive preformed in some concerts with a theatre group i once was with..
18. do you download music?
*cough* >_>
19. how many illegal things have you done?
None that i know of.. i dont think anyways 0_0
20. where would you want to go on a first date?
i wouldnt choose *is annoying like that*
21. describe your perfect date:
as long as I'm with the person I'm supposed to be with i dont care
22. has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
Nope..
23. ever been kissed under fireworks?
Yeppers.. once
24. do you like president bush?
Nope >_o
25. have you ever bungee jumped?
.....I'm not entirely crazy...
26. have you ever whiteriver rafted?
Nope.
27. have you ever crashed a car?
Nope.
28. has anyone more than 10 years older than you hit on you?
nope
29. have you met a real redneck?
Nope, they don't really exist in the UK anyways
30. are you interested in anyone right now?
yes ^_^
31. what song are you listening to right now?
My chemical romance- vampires will never hurt you
32. what is your current favorite song?
currently... then dresden dolls girl anachronism. in a weird sense the lyrics sound like me in some senses..
33. what was the last movie you watched?
The amitiville horror remake
34. who was the last person you said you loved?
Chris i think 0_0
35. where was the last place you went besides your house?
hairdressers
36. have you ever seriously vandalized someone elses property?
Nope 0_0
37. have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
Yep =P
38. have you ever sang in front of a large number of people?
yes but not solo *breathes sigh of relief*
39. whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
That they *are* the opposite sex...
40. what really turns you on?
Hmm, just random little things XD
41. what do you usually order from starbucks?
i dont go but if i did then prob a latte
42. what is your biggest mistake?
o so many.. so many
43. have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
*refuses to answer*
44. say something totally random about you:
i cant think of anything on the spot...
45. do you have an i-pod?
Nope but i want one..
46. has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Nope.
47. do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
hell yeah!
48. do you have braces?
nopies ^__^
49. are you comfortable with your height?
No i feel too tall.. i want to be average.. T_T
51. when do you know its love?
You just do.. you cant explain it
52. do you speak any other languages besides English?
Not really..
53. have you ever been to a tanning salon?
No why would i want too? 0_0
54. what magazines do you read?
'Kerrang!' and i flick througfh 'Neo' in the shop
55. these surveys are stupid, huh?
yeppers.. but im bored
56. do you have a hidden talent?
must do.. i havent found it yet
57. have you gone father than kissing?
Why should I tell you? nosy bitches!! XD
58. have you ever ridden in a limo?
yeppers to my aunt and uncles wedding..
59. has anyone you were really close with passed away?
Not really
60. do you watch mtv?
no
61. whats something that really annoys you?
n00bs.
62. whats something you really like?
Chris.. and choclate and gerald from mcr..
63. do you like michael Jackson?
Just the music XD
64. can you dance?
i guess
65. have you ever surfed?
Nope.
66. do you know how to pump gas?
No.
67. do you drive?
No.
68. whats the latest you have ever stayed up?
i dont look at the time but must have been about 7am 0_0
69. have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
yes.. alot of times
70. were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
Nope.
71. have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do?
loads!
72. did you do it?
some of them.. the others i plain refused |
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| Holidays and pure laziness |
[Aug. 27th, 2005|04:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dresden dolls - girl anachronism | ] |
Right well from Monday im going to start updating more regulary. Ive been not updating much thanks to my holiday in lanzorate and me having other things on my plate, so basically yeah ill update regularly again for as long as i can then XD |
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| I own so much pointless junk 0_o |
[Aug. 1st, 2005|08:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Melodies Of Life (remixed) | ] |
hey all you journal readers of so few there be... well time for a proper update.. well as well as i can be arsed XD
Well today I went to see chris after almost 2 weeks of not seeing him >_< Well yeah twas good and i miss him already im hoping to see him again wednesday before i go away thursday. I love him so much its unreal ^_^ and he brought me a new notebook *dances*
When i came home i was forced to tidy *under* me bed which is not always a good idea. mainly because i have no idea what junks hiding under there.. 0_o
i found some stuff like notebooks and stuff from when i was young.. and it brought back some memories. - and no neil there was nothing under there that you wouldnt expect ¬_¬ what do you think i am? XD
Well i guess thats all thats happened to me thats remotely intresting during today so heres some quizzes to make the very few of you laugh:
^
0_o that quiz knows too much... *runs for the hills*
^
o..k... 0_o
^
*sighs* i am.. T_T
^
*splutters* 0_o wtf?
No im not graduating at 18 rather when im around 21 after uni ¬_¬
and over half the student body hate me! ^o^
^
alcoholic, smoking, junkie cat.. 0_0 |
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| *quiz whoring.. again* |
[Jul. 31st, 2005|10:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | scream 3 in background | ] |
^
nooooo *bursts into tears* but.. but... T_T
^
sim and me... XD XD XD
and joyriding the bat mobile sounds kinda fun XD |
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| Robin ^o^ and tornado in brum!! 0_o |
[Jul. 29th, 2005|06:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Muse - time is running out | ] |
Ill start with the tornado in birmingham. It was yesterday and a tornado hit the southern part of the city. No one was killed but there were numberous casulties and extensive damage.
Anyways I went to brum new street todays with neil and liz to met Robin our friend from scotland. He came via train and is staying in Redditch with liz for the week. He seems like a really nice person and im hoping to see him again tomorrow with neil ^_^
In other news.. I *still* miss chris loads. I got a text off him todays and he seems to be having a good time ^__^ I cant wait till monday when i can see him again before i go away *dances*
I cant wait til i go on holiday theres parts im dreading but then again theres parts im looking forward too. Just being alone with my thoughts is a good thing in a sense cos it'll let me calm down some raw emotions and just do some much needed soul searching i guess.
Well thats all for today.. i might be a quiz whore again later so this may be updated XD XD XD |
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| Quiz whoring |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|07:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  artistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Azumanga - raspberry heaven | ] |
^
*bursts into hysterical laughter*
^
woooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^
that pictures scary 0_o *hides*
^
0_o wtf? |
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| Toast burns... >_ |
[Jul. 27th, 2005|11:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nightwish - Nemo | ] |
Ok my conclusion from the first half hour of me getting up is that toast burns! well toasters... but whatever. i know how a burn mark on my finger from when i poked the toaster *is an airhead*
Anyways life in amy-land (remembers ai-land from princess ai... >_o)
Yes life well um... i cant see chris friday... *holds back tears* but i should be able to see him monday *jumps around and trips over thin air* owies T_T
Otherwise nothing much has happened this morning apart ffrom ross waking me up by sending a text.. *sharpens nearest sharp object* espically when he knows i dont get up in the holidays ¬_¬
Well ive got rid of katie and andrew todays they be going to my nans while i *work*.. >_>
Anyways if i can be half arsed i might update later..
*curls up and goes to sleep* |
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| mask |
[Jul. 26th, 2005|09:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | kittie - paper doll | ] |
My latest works. I still dont think it flows but meh...
Mask.
My forgotten friend,
My saviour for all these years,
My cherished love,
Eye slits shaped only for me,
A space to breathe,
Whispered words, forgotten lies,
Its forever protection against the cold reality of truth.
My hidden friend,
My spiritless soul, my dying trust,
With no complaint from being my lie,
For long I have abandoned you,
Forsaken your friendship,
Left you to rot,
But now I place you over my face,
Your life is restored,
Welcome back my forever friend,
My mask. |
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| Hey you! yes you.. fill this out for me please.. *sad puppy dog eyes* |
[Jul. 26th, 2005|09:47 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lacuna coil - cold heritage | ] |
I'm sure guys know what to do here, I had this on my devart a while back.. and one person did it... o.<
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish i was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you gave me it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in 3 words.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think i'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. Do you wish to get to know me more?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what i say about you??? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 26th, 2005|08:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rise Against - heaven knows | ] |
2. ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER? A lover
3. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR? arragh falling i guess...
4. AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC? Yes! bwhahaha!!!
5. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV? >_o shit!
6. DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? 0_o if you mean drinks straws then yes and i chew on pen lids >_< *habit*
7. WERE YOU A CUTE BABY? fuck no!
8. IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU? depends theres ups and downs to both but im verrry happyily taken right now
9. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD? White and it has the *evil* backspace button..
10. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? not unless im hyper XD
11. HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED? see answer to question 3 ¬_¬
12. ANY SECRET TALENTS? *shrugs* i am talentless
13. WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT? somewhere?
14. IS JAY LENO FUNNY? *shrugs*
15. CAN YOU SWIM? Yes and quite well so im told.. i still feel like a retard in the water though.. and its rare to catch me in a swimming costume/binkini/tankini! so HA!
16. HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"? Yes and it rocks my socks!!
17. DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE? a little but im not obbsessed 0_o
18. HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP? 0_o
19. CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS? with great difficulty and after about half an hour
20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE? Yes, twice and going again in a week and a half
21. ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD? no.. wish i was most the time though
22. DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS? trick question!! XD manual
23. WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING? hate it!!! i could put a huge rant here.. but i cant be arsed
24. IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? Hopefully.. probably not though T_T
25. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? no! i never have done either.. its readable though guess thats something XD
26. WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO? Heat, pollen >_<
27. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU"? not for a few days... v_v
28. IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE? no ¬_¬
29. DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS? nah just get bored out of my head and then start matchmaking the guests 0_0
30. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? dont care
31. ARE BLONDES DUMB? yes! sometimes.. i am XD
32. WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP? in processed meats >_>
33. WHAT TIME IS IT? 21:03
34. DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME? yes.. froggie or the frog
35. IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING? fuck yeah!
36. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR? about 2 hours ago
37. DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS? Showers
38. IS SANTA CLAUS REAL? NO!
40. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? sometimes ^_^;;
41. WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO? mints >_o
42. CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER? Neither...
43. CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK? No...
44. HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE? not to my knowledge.. i think i would have if i didnt come round from that asthma attack last christmas 0_o
45. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY? Once.
46. IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? Yes...
47. ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER? Nope.
48. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? bluey grey
49. HOW LOUD DO YOU SNEEZE? depends XD
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE? bits are okies but some bits are total crap... thats why i have councillars
51. WHO'S BETTER: STONE COLD OR THE ROCK? 0_o
52. ARE YOU PSYCHIC? I have been recently 0_o
53. HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"? Nah.
54. DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS? used to play voilin and recorder.. gave them both up
55. HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN MONEY? Yes. >.>
56. CAN YOU SNOWBOARD? No
57. DO YOU LIKE CAMPING? never been XD
58. DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH? Not unless im eating at the same time *shudders*
59. DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC? the occult yes.. harry potter stuff no way
60. ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND? Nopies
61. YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE? you have to in this day and age
62. CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK? nopies
63. DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES? i always am
64. IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY? kinda
65. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? strawbaberries! .
66. DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH? yep but only usually black
67. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN KISSED? Oooooh yeah.
68. WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL? still the esure one >_<
69. DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE? wtf?
70. FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT? aaargh theres too many T_T dresden dolls - the jeep song has had me hooked XD |
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| No remorse cause i still remember the smile as you tore me apart.. |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|04:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dresden dolls- Gravity | ] |
If anyones wondering (doubt they are but meh..) the subject of this message are lyrics from the amazing new single from within temptation - angels.
Anyways Im not feeling too great today.. i was dragged around town by my mom and even though i got loads new stuff... black tie.. ^o^ i still was bored stiff.
Also my comps being playing up again.. i have the annoying feeling that we have another virus ¬_¬
As i cant be bothered to write much more heres the lyrics to Angels. enjoy:
Angels
Sparkling angel I believed
you were my saviour in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
all the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
no mercy no more.
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart.
Chorus:
You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke your promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
no mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
the smile when you tore me apart
Chorus:
You took my heart,
deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.
Could have been forever.
Now we have reached the end.
This world may have failed you,
it doesnt give you reason why.
You could have chosen a different path in life.
The smile when you tore me apart.
Repeat chorus |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 19th, 2005|10:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | rejected and ill | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lacuna coil - swamped | ] |
This is it.. i am finally misunderstood! *sarcastic jump for 'joy'*
I guess this was coming eventually though.. *sighs*
I went to councilling yesterday. alot of issues were tackled including my past and how i have serious trust issues. Basically I found out that i have extreme negatigve issues with the world and my life in general, i suffer with some sort of depression and a form of paranoia. And who can i turn to for help? the answer is no one. Im trying to be more optimistic so one of my so called friends tells me that im 'as optimistic as a wet fish'. Ive been through fucking hell and back and guess what Im still not right again but noo because im always upset about something im some sort of an attention seeker and a liar.. well guess what the only attention i seek is for help! I cant live like this no-one could.
I feel like my trust has been misplaced again and im heading back to that lonely road ive been on so many times before.
Im trying so hard but i dont even get a welldone for this.. this is one of the hardest things ive ever done and i feel so alone in doing it.
Im a different person.. well no shit.. but you cant judge me for that, thats unfair and unjust.
I dont know what to do anymore. Im so confused and i blame hormones.. i just want to crawl into a corner and cry.. but whats the point when someones gonna drag me out again? |
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| Yes more quiz spamming >_> |
[Jul. 9th, 2005|01:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Emiko Shiratori - melodies of life (from FFX) | ] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Amy (-chan)
2. Froggie
3. Oi you!
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE:
1. froggie-chan
2. chibi~death
3. deathangel
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. eyes
2. um... O_o
3. i dont know!! T_T
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My face
2. My hair colour
3. My feet O_o
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. butterflies and moths (laugh and you die!)
2. falling
3. wide open spaces full of people
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Sleep
2. Food
3. water
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Black big cords
2. Black long gypsy top
3. pentegram necklace - with the red circle things
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. A person - duh
2. Trust/Honesty
3. Love
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. I'm watching spongebob squarepants...
2. I'm eating nothing...
3. I'm debating going outside...
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Shoulder-length-ish hair
2. tall... well taller than me
3. eyes? O_o
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. MSN/Computer
2. Watching anime
3. reading manga and stuff
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Sleep
2. Get another painkiller
3. write some more of my story
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Teacher of drama and english
2. Actress
3. councillar/ thearpist
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Japan
2. New Zealand
3. Salem
THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. sakura...
2. Celina...
3. *shrugs* O_o
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Go to university
2. defeat my depression for once
3. go to Japan *_*
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I hate shopping
2. I tend to prefer trosuers
3. I dont really mind what i look like 24/7
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A CHICK:
1. I'm very emotional
2. I wear make up and can be self concious about my appearence
3. I don't like violence.
THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. I don't crush on celebrities XD
2.
3.
THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1. Liz- well shes already taken it!
2. Robin
3. H
they be the only people who are remotly going to read this |
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| Im obbsessed... again.. damn obbsessions >_ |
[Jul. 9th, 2005|12:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lacuna Coil - Circle | ] |
Well I am once again obbsessed with lacuna coil. I was over a month ago.. then it died down and then last night and during the last hour I have downloaded shit loads more of their music. This is not normally like me as i download one or two tracks get bored then move on to another band. Anyways despite this Im not in the greatest of moods ever.
I am ill (yes again! for all you who believe i am some sort of illness freak!). This time I have a reason though so fuck you all! *goes back into dark corner and goes to sleep*
Its hot and sunny again todays >_<
I woke up this morning and once dressed etc i opened the windows and was almost blinded by the sudden light. I had concluded that i either need curtains that let in some light so i dont get blinded almost every summer morning *or* i just never open my curtains again. Considering the first option costs money I have decied to stick with the second option... and let my sister open the curtains instead.. bwhahaha!!
I have just stopped myself from downloading more lacuna coil stuff.. if i download too much my parentals *will* kill me.. i still have to sort my documents out anyways and delete a load of stuff i dont need anymore. >_>
Nothing much else has happened recently.. Im thinking of posting some of my story up soon... havent quite decieded yet considering hardly anyone reads my journal anyways... |
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[Jul. 8th, 2005|08:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lacuna coil - angels punishment | ] |
Well i saw Chris todays had a good time and finally kinda saw ginger snaps ^_^ - have to watch the second and third now XD
Didnt do much else todays.. been in an up and down mood anyways... damn hormones >_<
At the moment its a low cos my best friend doesnt believe what i say and it hurts. I feel like crying again cos nothing usually comes between us.. but lately things have and im too submissive.. T_T
anyways as i said nothing much else done todays...
will update soon.. |
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| I am a quiz whore!! |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|08:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ditzy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The dresden dolls - half jack | ] |
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| Unnamed.. any suggestion welcomed! |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|08:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | relaxed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Enya - only time | ] |
Young lonely girl,
Wanders through dark empty streets,
Eerie shadows creep,
Catch her with invisible hands,
Hooded figure follows,
Watching her from afar,
Catches up quickly,
Grabs her from behind.
Girl struggling against masculine grip,
Conflicting stench of sweat and alcohol
Linger on his skin,
He tears away material,
Revealing her naked flesh,
Untouched by any other human,
Displayed like a whore.
Forcing himself into her,
Against a woman’s will,
Treat her like a toy,
A cheap fix, Remember
all men are above,
History records state that,
Women just his minions,
Open to unwanted hate.
He leaves her lying helpless,
No care and no regret,
But not without threatening her into silence,
Blade held tight against her neck.
Young lonely girl,
Lost in herself torture,
Her head a shrine to repressed memories,
Her heart willing to forget,
Her confidence a shattered mirror,
Her trust in men long gone,
An empty shell of a human,
Who longs for her delayed death.
~
my latest works... from way too much empathy in my head O_o |
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| About time i updated... >_ |
[Jul. 4th, 2005|04:29 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lacuna coil - heavens a lie | ] |
I cant remember the last time i *properly* updated this thing so i will start with last thursday and make my way forward to the present day... as best as i can... which isnt that good but meh.
THURSDAY!:
Thursday our year at school went to Drayton manor. I started out all hyped in morning.. then Neil told me some stuff that Jane had been saying about me and i lost most of that hyperness. By the time we got there i had a headache (from mr northams drving in the minibus >_<) but nethertheless i was ready to scare myself silly =P
We,(the main group of us..)were gonna go on storn force 10 first.. but we ended up going on the Buffolo as storm force had broken down >_<. James and me were almost killed by the buffolo.. seriously!! >_<
Then we queued up to go on Storm force (took an hour with the repairs it needed >_<) liz and me went on the back.. and got water in baaaad places O_O but it still rocked =P
Then we all went on the rapids. There was H, alex, chris, Katie and charlotte on ours and as the camara came.. we all pretended to be dead.. scared some chavs XD
Then we all (except alex and neil) went on melstrom.. i got *another* headache from that.. so while everyone else went on shockwave alex, h, neil, charlotte and me all went on the ferris wheel, golden nugget ride and the rapids again... we went kinky this time.. except it looked like neil and me were being more than kinky in the photo if you get my drift.. O_o DONT WORRY CHRIS WE WERENT I PROMISE XD
We then went into the zoo and some peoples opinions were being strongly shown here... Liz wanted to leave cos she couldnt stand the animals being in the cages whereas even though im against animal creulty whats the chance im ever gonna see a tiger in the wild realistically? (if you didnt already know or guess tigers are my favourite animal) Well anyways after the rest of us came out the zoo we went on the flying dutchman and the bumper cars.. and finally the rapids again for another 'dead' shot. therefore concluding my day at drayton manor.. after that i came home.. and did fuck all as usual XD
FRIDAY!:
We had reveiw day at school and as per bloody usual im doing fine.. i then had an hour to burn off before i helped out with the drama department. James and me walked around school god knows how many times before going to Lidl so i could get my 'healthy' breakfast of additive and sugar filled energy drinks and german chocolate XD
then i went to the drama thing where i had to play a gambling addict called betsy lost in front of year 9. i did ok i think XD
Then i met up with Chris and went round his. By doing this i was introduced to the very wonder that is 'black books'! http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0262150/quotes <- see for quotes!!
anyways he almost tickled me to death which resulted in kissing... ^_^;; anyways ive missed him shit loads ever since.. and i cant wait till friday when i get to see him again thanks to my day off =P
SATURDAY!:
didnt do much.. basically couldnt be arsed to do anything at all. i watched bits of live 8 here and there but meh.. and muse played in paris anyways >_< Then i went to my nans 60th birthday thing.. i got really hyper/tipsy and there was a peice of lettuce on my plate and me being me said the follwing:
'This thing is alive and it came from the bottom of the sea!' by this time my family were watching me laughing slightly then i concluded, 'therefore i will name him Shaun!' that set the entire family into hysterics. After about an hour after the incident Shaun was devoured/ executed by moi for treason to his creator (aka me). Then i went indoors and watched LOTR 2 before going home. XD
SUNDAY!:
was rudely awoken by my sister and mom saying i was still lying in bed at 12 when i was supposed to be cleaning for my brother party ¬_¬
so for 2 hours after that it was non-stop cleaning *with* a headache from the prevoius night >_<
Well anyways later my brother and his 2 friends, my sister, mom and I went bowling and i kicked their ass's!! *dances*
came home binged on cake.. got forced to iron then watched the first part of 'beneath the skin' on ITV. Tis a great murder, thriller kinda thing and im hooked!!
MONDAY (today)!:
Well i had my first day at work experience todays. It was okies (im at batchley first school.. my old primary school..) I mean it wasnt all that bad but i was called miss every 5 seconds which began to annoy me after a while >_<
Im working with a mixed year 1 and 2 class with a teacher called mrs williams who has frog plussies all over her classroom *_*
I dont mind it but im still a little unsure of whether primary school life is really suited to me or not...
Otherwise i came home and ive been half helping my mom with her uni assignment which isnt all that bad cos i do it so quickly.
Ive just noticed that theres an emotion called 'nerdy' and it rocks XD
I miss chris... loads T_T
Anyways ill try to update more often... |
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| Name the tunes.. (stole from liz-chan... again ^_^;;) |
[Jun. 30th, 2005|07:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nightwish - Ghost Love Score | ] |
Liz yours was hard O_O
anyways here we go:
The Rules.
1) On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first fifteen to twenty songs on the list.
2) Write down the first line of the song.
3) Have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. (Don't Cheat!)
4) When someone guesses correctly, strike out the line and list the correct name of the song next to it.
1. Its been so long I cant remember...
2. You dont remember me but I remember you...
3. tired of being what you want me too be..
4. Boys and girls of every age wouldnt you like to see something strange?...
5. I never id lie and wait forever...
6. small simple sfae price rise to wake and carry me with all of your regret..
7. take your white finger slide a nail under the top and bottom button of my bazer...
8. coin operated boy.. (god this's easy >_<)
9. you could be my unitended...
10. bye bye baby dont be long...
11. wake up why dont you put on a little make up?...
12. Alone for while ive been searching through the dark..
13. If i tell you will you listen?...
14. All the small things...
15. Hey Dad look at me think back and talk to me..
16. i drive this late looking for corspes
17. every time we lie awake after everthing hit we take...
18. will the sun come out?...
19. A lady with a violin playing to the sea..
20. Cut my life into peices..
((i cut all the japenese stuff out... couldnt be arsed to find translations.)) |
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